It was the best of times, it was the worst of times…

Posted: December 30, 2018 in Postcards from Cancerland.


As I look back on 2018 (as we are all prone to do this time of year) I realize that this has been the hardest, yet most beautiful year of my life.
Let me explain…
This year has been so incredibly hard, this year hurt, this year beat the crap out of me.
Diana and I have walked the darkest, scariest road of our lives.
But, we haven’t been alone.
THAT is what makes 2018 so ridiculously beautiful at the same time.
I have discovered new depths of love and friendship this year.
During the weakest time of my life, I have fallen into the arms of my Heavenly Father.
He holds me and sings songs of hope.
I have grabbed the hem of the robe of my King and Healer, Jesus, I’m not letting go.
I have gotten to know the Holy Spirit like never before. He is my companion and comforter.
I have experienced a breathtaking new intimacy and tenderness with my wife. She is the most amazing human I know. I’ve realized the power of the word “stay”.
I have hugged, held, and high fived my granddaughter. I have watched her play, laugh, color, and exclaim “WOW!” as she discovers new things. I’m reminded of the power of wonder.
I have realized that we have the most amazing family and friends EVER.
There has been an outpouring of love that has flooded our hearts.
The generosity of so many has carried us.
We have realized that friendship is the greatest treasure that life has to offer.
We have learned what a useless thing pride is. It often stands in the way of receiving love.
2018, you were hard and beautiful.
We were beaten and blessed.
2019, I don’t know what you hold, the road is still dark and scary.
but I do know that we are not alone.
And that makes ALL the difference.
I feel a gentle breeze, I believe this road is leading to a wide open place.
It smells like fresh cut hope.
I squeeze the hand of my wife, I lift my head to the heavens and I shout so loud that it leaves me winded…

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