Let’s Spin!

Posted: July 28, 2018 in Postcards from Cancerland.


Some of my favorite music of all time is an amazingly innovative album from 1988 by the Swirling Eddies called “Let’s Spin!”. It’s incredible, fun, under appreciated art.
Interestingly enough, let’s spin is also a really good description of my feeble attempts at sleep last night.
It seems that the combo platter of the steroids and a new chemo drug did some weird and wacky things to my brain.
I didn’t sleep much at all, but the few minutes when I did, it felt like my mind was the paint spinner machine at Wal-Mart. You know what I’m talking about, when you buy custom paint and they put it in the shaking contraction for a few minutes to blend all the colors together.
That’s what was happening to my brain.
Let’s spin!
There were…
spinning around inside my brain.
Faster and fasTER and FASTER.
They spun into blurs, then blended into one bloppy monochromatic hue…
then they would suddenly come to a jerky stop.
When everything stopped spinning, I knew it was time to get up and go to the bathroom.
That was my night.
Weird, huh?
You want weird?
At one point I swear I saw the Wicked Witch of the West riding her bicycle frantically chasing a screaming Krispy Kreme Doughnut!
Then, they both got sucked into the big bloppy monochromatic hue.
It was weird.
It was unsettling.
It was a spin storm.
After a long night, the sun came in and things settled.
I’m glad.
I’m just tired.
Here’s something I’m learning: You make room for rest, because sometimes it doesn’t show up when it’s supposed to.
That’s true for EVERYbody.
Things spin.
Sometimes our lives spin out of control.
Sometimes life is a spin storm.
Grab an anchor.
Cling to hope, joy, truth.
Find some rest.
Healing requires rest.
Get some.
Let’s rest.
That’s what I’m going to do.

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