Sometimes you find a long, hard fight.
You think that it’s over…
surely it’s over…
But, it turns out that your enemy hasn’t gone away.
He is smaller, and weaker, but he is still there.
The fight isn’t over.
You got to size your bully up.
So you can take him out for good.
That is what we have to do.
It’s time to size up the belly bully.
We met with the oncology surgeon today.
He is a no nonsense dude.
I appreciate that trait in someone who is going to be cutting into my body.
We went in thinking we were going to talk about removing a fistula.
It turns out that the big concern is that there are two masses still showing up.
They are smaller but they are still there.
One started out grapefruit size, it’s smaller now.
But, it’s still there.
This is a bigger concern than the fistula.
They want to do an exploratory surgery ASAP to get a sample of the nastiness and see what we are dealing with.
They want to see if the tumors are persistent or if they have mutated. This will help them decide on the next step, more aggressive chemo or stem cell transplant.
The exploratory surgery should be microscopic so it MIGHT be a quick process.
We are sizing up the belly bully.
I really want to take him out for good.
We are so ready for this to be over.
In the meantime, I’m taking antibiotics with funny names that sound like places in Dr Seuss books…”all the Yaknidazoles in Metronidazole”
In the meantime, I continue to choose and cling to joy.
I’m reminded that happiness and joy are often confused.
Happiness happens when I get what I want.
It is temporary and can slip from your grip like sand.
Joy is grounded in the eternal and unchanging stuff of life.
It gives you something strong and real to grab ahold of.
I’m able to choose joy as we size up my bully because I have already sized up my Helper.
He is HUGE.
In fact He is immeasurable.
He is immeasurably BIGGER than anything I am facing.
He is immeasurably BIGGER than anything you are facing.
“Now…
to the God who can do so many awe-inspiring things, IMMEASURABLE things, things greater than we ever could ask or imagine through the power at work in us, to Him be all glory in the church and in Jesus the Anointed from this generation to the next, forever and ever. Amen.”
(Ephesians 3:20-21 The Voice)
carbonated joy 
Hello, its Keoni Uyechi from Texas, sadly the Uyechis don’t make it up your way very often :-[
I’ve been staying up to date with your condition and praying about you alot!!!!!!!
I hope you feel better soon and much love from Texas.
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Keoni!! Hey my friend, it’s really good to hear from you! We miss the Uyechis!! We need to all get together soon and eat some chicken wings! Thank you so much for the prayers! I love you buddy!
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